Rest In Peace Beautiful Angel - 5:20 PM
I miss you so much already. For almost five years you've kept us company. From the moment you came into our home in that little shoe box of your's you've made us so much more happy. Who won't remember the times you used to squeal at us every time we opened the fridge, every time we walked near your cage and even when we've just come home? I'm going to miss the times when you would crawl around and into the grocery bags when we were packing them away, then to find you chewing on the green leaves of the vegetables, chewing on plastic bags, chewing on cardboard and squealing for more food. I'm going to miss how you chewed on anything and everything, including the thongs and paddlepop sticks. I 'm going to miss how you'd play hide and seek with us, and every time you'd hide behind the rubbish bin or under the cabinets. I'm going to miss the times when you stood on my foot and lifted your head so I would stroke your chin. I'm going to miss the way you purred when we stroke your back and how you squeaked when we stroke your fur the wrong way. I'm going to miss the way you licked at the water when we were bathing you and the way you kept pooping while you were in your mini bathtub. I'm going to miss the times when we'd take you out into the little backyard and you'd munch on all the grass. I'm going to miss how you used to walk up to the edge of your cage so we'd feed you a carrot stick or some broccoli. I'm going to miss seeing you curl up in the corner of your cage - so peaceful. I'm going to miss the times when I talked to you when I felt down, because I knew you wouldn't judge me. I'm going to miss watching you shuts your eyes and sleep at night. I'm going to miss how you fit perfectly in my arms. I'm even going to miss the times when you pee-ed and pooped on the carpet and on my clothes. I'm going to miss how you used to crawl up onto my shoulder when I lay on the couch. I'm going to miss your cute little sneezes and your cute little hiccups. I'm going to miss everything you brought into our home, every little tiny bit of it.
It'll never feel the same again when I walk into the laundry room, to find that your blue cage, your little bowl and your little water bottle won't be there anymore. It'll never feel the same now that you're not living with us anymore. Our home will never feel the same.
I love you so much my beautiful guinea pig - my beautiful angel.
Rest In Peace my little girl.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Persis thinks she is the master. - 11:41 PM
Yes, I have failed to blog for almost a month now, but this is the least of my concerns.Law Camp was so FUCKING AWESOME!
And no, that's not all I have to say Persis. =P
Well, because Persis has been nagging me the whole night. I thought why not be a good friend and help her become even more deluded about how I'm her puppet, so now I'm blogging.
I'm a fantastic friend. =)
I really don't know how to describe my experiences over the past few weeks. It was definitely overwhelming, but nonetheless priceless. Law is fantastic, and no I haven't become a law elitist. It's just every person is so inviting, exciting and every other positive adjective. The second, third and fourth year students aren't discriminating or condescending at all, in fact, had they not told us, I don't think we would've known that they were older than us.
And let me reiterate: LAW CAMP WAS FUCKING AWESOME!
Except for the fact that they put it at the worst possible time. Now, everyone has an overload of work to catch-up on, but no-one seems to be getting anywhere because Facebook is way too much of a distraction.
And because of this mountain of work, I've also been failing to catch-up with friends. I want to take this opportunity to say sorry for my behaviour lately, I don't mean to neglect anyone. FORGIVE ME! =(
The upcoming events are of course the Commerce Cruise (even though I don't do Commerce, am very anti-Commerce and pro-Arts), because the one-and-only Daisy is doing Commerce, and of COURSE Miss. Fishy's Birthday Party!
Time to get hyped up. =)
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Alcomahol = Liver Failure. - 1:05 PM
So, Emily and numerous others have told me to update my blog. What better time to than updating it right now after that fucking awesome party last night. "JAGER BOMBS!" and "MIDGET HOOK-UP!" pretty much summed up the night for Jimmi. ROFLLast night is one massive blur at the moment. I remember getting really sick, being slapped in the face so I wouldn't pass-out, throwing water in Reila's face only to get beer thrown back into mine, meeting lots of randoms, throwing up, that crazy-arse dancefloor, losing my phone then screaming "FUCKING BITCHES FIND MY PHONE" while standing at the toilet door (which was later found by Daisy), pissing in front of Emily, watching Emily going off-her-face, seeing Kelvin the tragic getting smashed, drinking Smirnoff Vodka straight, drinking a few cups of goon, eating a meat-pie and that drama at the end of the night. Yes, hahah AWESOME NIGHT!
I'm still feeling rather sick, I vow to lay off alcohol for a while, because it probably will only lead to liver failure. And I really don't want that.
Thanks to everybody who attempted to look after me and even to those who slapped me, lol. Love you all.
Yeah, no philosophical blog this time =P.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
The Endless Cycle - Always and Forever. - 9:28 PM
Bernard Shaw once wrote: "There are two tragedies in life: one is to lose your heart's desire; the other is to gain it."To me, in order to lose your heart's desire, you would have had to gain it in the first place. I agree, it is a tragedy to lose what you feel is a need rather than a want; but perhaps it is even more tragic to not have been able to gain your heart's desire to begin with. If being able to have that is a tragedy, then I want tragedy, because I would trade anything to have a chance to experience my heart's desire, than to not have that chance at all. So you know what I think? I think that people don't realise how lucky they are to have been granted that opportunity to feel, to breathe, to live. It's almost as though we're all too busy to just stop for a second and appreciate everything that's ventured into our lives - even the little things. So no, I don't think gaining your heart's desire is a tragedy at all; instead it's almost a blessing. Even if you do lose it in the end, I don't think you'd give it back for the world, because if you did, it'd be selfish to the people who never got that chance at all.
Stephen King once wrote: "Time takes it all, whether you want it to or not. Time takes it all, time bears it away and in the end, there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness and sometimes we lose them there again."
I've travelled in and out of 'darkness', but everyone has. It's almost as though we're trapped in an endless cycle that brings joy, but as a penalty for this 'joy', sadness is brought about ten-fold. Sometimes I want to take risks, which I can only hope will bring joy. In so many cases though, the negatives outweigh any positive that may come as a result. I just want you all to know that I never got the chance to gain my heart's desire, not even once. Life moves on though, even if I don't. All I can do is chase after it, even if I know I'll never be able to reach it. It's a matter of putting myself on the line again and even though I am cynical, I am becoming hopeful...
... because Peyton Elizabeth Sawyer once said: "We got one life, one chance and what we do with it is up to us."
I want you to know that I appreciate you for who you are. I don't judge you based on your mistakes. In fact I don't judge you at all. I think it's amazing that you are making the mistakes that you've made. I admire you for it, because to make mistakes is one thing, but to acknowledge the fact that you know they were mistakes is huge. Don't let people drag you down; hell, don't drag yourself down. Because those people don't understand you, they're probably too shallow to even empathise with you. So chin-up, I'm always here for you and you know it.
And if it's any consolation, you're so lucky to have had people who appreciated you for you who are in the past, even if that appreciation didn't last forever. I'm still yearning for at least one person to and I know I've gotten close, but that never really is enough. I blame myself for everything that goes wrong, and I'm not even sure if that's wrong anymore. So tell me ways I can keep my chin up, help me take my mind off things - even if it is only for one short and sweet second - because I want to be able to stop thinking, I want to be able to be optimistic.
"I want to immerse myself in someone and to wake that heart long afraid to feel."
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Anonymous (I'm nameless [ie afraid]) - 5:27 PM
Well this is coming from the blogwriter himself ...The night I typed that blog, I was just feeling moody.
Thanks for the overwhelming response though umm anonymous people.
and for those anonymous people who are extremely pessimistic, try to smile and be chirpy ok?
=) Plus, I should've left a note. I was watching One Tree Hill that night, we all know how depressing that can be. Especially the Jayton story. LOL.
I think I may have caused just a little too much drama for a blog.
JACK AND DEMI FTW! Oh YEAH!
p.s. Liverpool was awesome Phyllis =) and the hairdressers was indeed an anxious moment hahah.