Sunday, September 30, 2007
Signed, sealed, delivered... - 1:21 PM
It would be an understatement to say a lot has unfolded over the past few days.The final day of High School saw the creation of masses of memories and Graduation was, nonetheless, emotional. All I can say is that I'll miss all of you so much, because not seeing you 5 days a week will make my life empty.
I'm not sure if i can publish this freely so I won't. There was the biggest revelation last night and I am happier than I've been in a while, because it wasn't the worst case scenario as I played out in my head so many times before. Instead it was gratifying and liberating. =) And I've pledged with Viet/Neng/NengNeng, that the flirt has left the building. After all of this, I've realised that even if you flirt with someone and they begin to like you, it's not genuine, because that's not who you really are. That's why I'm grateful that flirting was off limits with you, because instead of feeling uncomfortable after this situation (like I've felt so many times before with others), all I have to do is speak and act the same way, because that's who you knew me as and that's who I'll always be. True, old genuine me.
Needless to say it was particularly difficult sleeping last night. True, a huge weight lifted off my shoulders, but because of that there were so many other things to think about and hopefully, in the not-too-distant future, look forward to. Great thing is I know I'll never lose you, because you'll always be my awesome, compassionate and funny friend.
And I promise you (friend of ours), that even if something does happen, we'll still be the way we were before - the friends you laugh with, the friends you laugh at, the friends you love, the friends you always knew. And let us be damned if you're unhappy, because friends stick together.
I don't want to become corny, but it's hard not to, because everytime I think about you it makes me smile and even though I saw you yesterday, I miss you already. This is one of the reasons why I'll say thank God Paper 1 is in 2 weeks and 3 days.
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music at the moment, maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved
So, I won't hesitate no more,
No more, it cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
p.s. Fickle is under the 'hate' category in my vocabulary. =P